So uhhh how to start. Well I am 3 weeks into the start of fertility treatments. I have not really started the "Cycle" I am just prepping my body to get ready to start in a couple of weeks. I am taking the pill and also Metformin and the real hard part is I have totally changed my eating habits. After my visit with Dr.Robbins a couple of weeks ago per his request and my choice I have stopped eating all sugar and all carbohydrates and the real kicker I am trying to not go over 1000 calories a day. He warned me that I am going to be really cranky and it is not going to be fun and he was totally correct. I am doing better then I did the first few weeks but If I don't eat something during the day I turn into a beast later on. I can see changes in my body and I am very happy with that! I have not been getting on a scale one because I don't have one and 2 because I tend to get obsessed with things and I don't want to be checking my weight every single minute of the day to see if I have lost anything. I weigh myself at my mother in laws once a week and that works for me.
I am feeling really optimistic about getting pregnant this time. I feel like I understand what is going on and I found out that I had been taking some of the meds wrong! I have not felt positive about getting pregnant for the last 3 years or so. I know it may not work and that the odds are not in our favor but it has happened once..actually twice(but I don't like dwelling on the misscariage) and it can happen again. I think losing the weight and being very careful what I eat is going to help. I have a lot of wonderful people praying for me and my girls faith and assurance that they will be big sisters is amazing and really helps keep me going. I am not the kind of person who is afraid to talk about my infertility in the past I did feel ashamed but I don't anymore. This is part of who I am and what I have to deal with like my favorite quote says "Come what may and love it". I am trying really hard to understand why this is my trial and I am so blessed in so many ways.
